It’s really not meant to be…

You wouldn’t know how it feels if you’ve lost a job or you’ve failed on applying for it, not until you finally experienced it. I don’t know if I need to feel sorry for myself ‘cause I failed or be happy because it’s an experience that life’ has given me. Maybe or really it’s not meant to be. Remember what I blogged a week ago? That I’m not yet ready for a job? Maybe, I am really not.

A week ago, I’ve sent a resume of mine to Convergys (hello? I just wanna give it a try) then I received a phone call from them telling me to go in their office for the initial interview. So, I tried. I went there wearing business attire, which I really don’t like to wear in the first place. As I got there, I looked like “weird”, maybe I’m the only one who really looks like an “office girl”. Dang it! Anyway, I just need to love it or else I’ll look more uncomfortable with it. I’ve waited for how many hours, until my name called by this cute lady.

We went to a small office, and then she started an interview with us. First, I introduced myself. Of course, letting her know my background and why I applied there in the first place. Then, she gave us a picture and we need to make a story out of it. So we did. She asked us to wait for a while for the results. If we pass, then we could take an examination. But if not, well sorry for us and she’ll state the reasons why.

Okay, I’ve waited for the results. I’m a bit anxious while waiting for it. Until she called my name again and gave this piece of paper saying that….. “We regret to advise you that you did not meet the minimum qualification for the position that you applied for.” Yes, she stated the reasons why.

First off, I need to neutralize my accent. How I wish I am blessed with this British accent. But it can be develop through speech class. Right? Haha.

Second, I need to improve enunciation. Well, I did not grow up in an English speaking environment. As I said, it can be still develop. High five!

Third, I need to be more confident in expressing oneself in English. Let’s just put it this way, I am not really good in oral communication. That’s why I want to overcome it and develop more my skills in public speaking. When nervousness strikes, I panic. If you’ll just know people how much I wanted to communicate in English, but at this point in time, I can’t. Err! And I’m shy. That’s it. Haha.

Lastly, I need to expound on answers. Oh c’mon. I am not really good in explaining even in defending myself. Why? Nervousness attacks first. I know there’s no reason for me to be nervous. But hey, I’m trying to overcome it. Anyway, I’m really having a hard time explaining because I’m afraid that somebody might having a hard time too to understand what I am explaining. I’m really lack of confidence! Tsk! I need to overcome it as soon as possible.

I am not mad nor hurt because I’m not hired. I guess, I’m happy for it. It’s an experience for me. And for the next time I applied, I now have this knowledge on it. By which I can focus more on my studies. I’m planning to study this summer vacation with my friends in an English Proficiency class You know what? I am more enjoyed in studying rather than working. Hehe.

Oh well, thanks for the opportunity and experience, Convergys! ^__^

GOD IS GOOD. THANKS FOR THE TIME BESTFRIEND. I REALLY LOVE YOUR PLACE, TOO RELAXING AND PEACEFUL.

P.S.

I’m starting to love the chirps of the bird. Haha.